Finally my dignity
Empowered me to breathe
And my pride and my ego
For that moment had to leave
Dose of karma I received
I was man enough to freeze
The crying and complaining
So I could put my heart at ease
It got broken, still I reload
Still it's beating as it bleeds
Still it's bleeding as it heals
Still it's healing as time feels
Like eternities are passing
And my loneliness appeals
To girls that ain't worth asking
For a number or cheap thrills
It's a never ending process
And I'm telling you it kills
The spirit of a warrior / Counting losses poppin' pills
Of temporary freedom / Manufactured to instill
Insecurities dependencies / That further make you ill
Addicted to the pain / One woman after the other
It was just another game / Part-time lovers that I smothered
To recover from the same / heart break yesterday
That caused me heart ache / For tomorrow
While relieving me the sorrow / Of a soul that's feeling hollow
Cuz I feared rolling solo / So instead I chose to borrow
A little bit of time / from these women that I followed
Down a path of self-destruction / While ignoring the instruction
Of the elders that protect me
It took solitude to resurrect me
And introspection to disinfect me
Got a giant heart inside me
That let the exes disconnect me
Disrespect me while they tempt me
In ways you can't imagine / Beauty pageants
Superficially / Led my mission down a tangent
Choosing affection, losing purpose / I imagine
It may seem I was innocent / Free from faults but I wasn't,
Insolent in my ways / Made mistakes and who here hasn't?
So cut the judgements / cut the back chat
You don't know how this affects me
The thought of my own father still upsets me
Trusted the wrong woman Goddess help me
And
Then
.......
Redemption showed me indirectly
That the universe had sent me: A golden opportunity
With the betrayal I endured
Cuz I ASCENDED from the pain
With a clean heart and I am sure
That being a good man has been my only cure
I am faithful and devoted / and determined to secure
A family that's healthy / and a lover that is pure
Content with my own company / until the moment I am sure
That the woman I embrace / is able to endure
And the love that we have found will for ever be secure!